Resistance

I believe resistance to not sin is very normal. A question I’ve run into an awful lot is “how many times can I ask for forgiveness then continue sinning before GOD gets annoyed and doesnt want to deal with me anymore?” The very simple and quick answer is HE will never give up on you and he never wants to give up on you. Many-me included-hear that and go “yeah right, i messed up so many times i wouldn’t blame him for leaving.”

The other day I was spiraling in those exact feelings, reading Isaiah and Now entering Jeremiah. It describes such distruction and intense actions done to the people. In my mind i kept repeating wow this is really intese, why would GOD do all this. In my moment of spiraling i had this feeling and small subconscious thought, that ive been getting a lot when I spiral or deeply question GODS actions or motives

This thought calmly said to me “remember everything you just read? He didn’t do it because He felt like it, did you see how far they went?” Is this GOD/Jesus talking to me? Is this me telling myself this so I feel better about what I’m reading? Not entirely sure but I like to think it’s GOD reaching out to me.

I think so many of us question GOD because we view HIM as a human, it’s human to give up on someone who can’t keep their word and continues to do you wrong. My opinion, you shouldn’t be with anyone who treats you like that. GOD doesn’t view it that way. GODs patience and intentions does not equal humans patience and intentions. Thank goodness it doesn’t, we would be really screwed.

The bible has scripture after scripture saying you are my child and I love you, or do not fear and have faith in the strength I have to help you. Yet we tell ourselves we are unworthy of his grace, especially when we deal with mental health issues.

Something that may help you that has helped me is I keep repeating to myself GOD knows my heart, HE knows me and loves me . He knows why I am hesitant, knows I’m battling the resistance in my soul. HE knows and will be here with me.